l love my Future..not my past time..

sometimes i felt so down till i don't know what shall i do..
the more i think..the more worst i felt..

one come and go from my life..but still i couldn't find the right one..

until one day..i meat him..he wasn't perfect at all..
but that is actually fulfill my life..he shines me up with his simple and gentle attitude..
he never says that he loves me..but when i ask why..
his answer were very simple.."i scared that i might loose u one day, don't worry honey, when the right time comes..u'll hear it from me day and night.."
promises..i used to remind him..don't make any promises with me..if the words can't be kept..
now..when i make him promise..he'll say.."no promises sweetheart..i just couldn't stand your tears.."
being a part from him..just make my world turn so slow..
i just felt so wired without calls or messages from him..but i just need to understand his world..
before i could be a part or him life..
i just can't imagine how would it be..life without him..

today...someone came to meet me..seeking for my forgiveness..begging for another chances..
reminding me of all the sweet memory that we have gone through..telling me how long the relationship has been..and how he just love those time we had together...
then i felt so silly..cause..i just couldn't remember any of it..
i don't even felt the sweet memories that he tell..and i couldn't recall any of it..
huh..how deep i plant these sadness in me..how far he has draw the scar in this heart..
until i don't even bare to remember any..

all that i ever member is..being with him that i love now..all i ever wanted is to look straight forward..till i face my future.. till i be in my love arms again..
not to turn back..and recalling all the sad stories i have get from u..
i'm sorry dear Shafiq..i journey with u..has come to its end..u were no more in my heart..
all i can say is..we were just friend now..just like u said to 'her' before...