A Perfect Price of L.O.V.E

if u ask me what is the meaning of love..
i shall say my love is meaningless..
if u ask him what is love is all about..
his answer was AMIRA SHAHIDA
if u ask them what is the love that they see in her..
the answer is MUHAMMAD ZAKWAN
they said love is in the air..
but why i couldn't feel it..
the said love is a fantastic feeling that can't be deny by human..
but why am i not enjoying it...
then here come a lady telling one sweet advice that i think i could share..
"u won't be able to feel the real love unless u love your creator..Allah..
next, u need to love everything about your self..
u need to enjoy all the moment even if its those hard time to face..
then u know how to feel so great full..and then only u can feel the actual feel of love..
that is how u can feel and learn the love that people been talk about.."
looking back to the time i went..i was trying to be someone that i was not..and i hate my self..
i was not enjoying all the moment i faced..
until i found the great people around me..that always reminding me about how precious life is..
leading me back to the real world..
then i noticed how wonderful is life when i know i have met many types of people..
and i could learn from their action and make it as my experience on life...
yet..this make me more understand to perfect price of my LOVE..
remembering that Allah is always with me..i was not afraid to face the day after tomorrow..
and counting the days to be by his side in life..

Forgiveness

yesterday i listen to a song that seem like suits my mood at this moment..it seem like so complete and perfect till i felt like a new spirit has been absorb in me..i felt much stronger than before..
i did something wrong..but i had no bad intention at all..and to admit it..i was not afraid..
its just that i didn't knew how to correct everything..how to fix the cuts that been drown in her hearts..i just want the best in her..that's all..no other bad intention..but all that is no use for now..
she just hate me so much..and i could never fix anything..
at one point i almost giving up in life..but someone told me to take it positively..maybe now they will never understand..but one day when they are..there's nothing to loose anymore..
so now i have to stay strong n face the fact that might happen..
at one part..i just wanted to follow what my heart said..is to take all the bad influence down..but i realize how good they were in manipulating stories..i decide to keep shut..cause..when the truth came in one day..all this will be fix by it self..
owh god..please give more strength to face this life..

Mohd Al-Ashraf

out of my wonder these one fine day i meat this one guy who i never though i could never meet him again..i was so surprise to receive a message from him that night..
after 5 years..i just could not believe what just happen..a guy that have entered my life once before is back in my life..
the next day..i went for a movie with him..knowing him dating someone else is just nothing for me..5years is quit a long period..and anything could happen..but knowing him wanting me back in return is something that i never expect..
i was so shock and didn't know how to react..so i decided to follow with the flow..as i try to get to understand him back..i noticed some few changes that make my heart said that he doesn't really want me..he was just so excited to meet me back..but to have him back in my life..i was acting such a fool if i do so..
so now its almost a month..i started to be treated more like a friend..he start to feel comfortable to shared all his problems with me while I'm feeling annoyed to give him advice..
i know i shouldn't feel so..but i just can't deny some part of me..i felt like wanting him back..but..i guess this Mohd Al-Ashraf shall just remain as a part of my sweet memory in life..
besides i guess, what i have now is more than enough n 'His' love could not be challenge by Ashraf hismself..
maybe all this happen for several reason that i might not know yet..but who knew what might gonna happen next right??
i always pray for the best in life so that i won't upset later with all the decision i made before..